Hey, just journaling, I guess. It seems to me that my H has been way too nice to me lately. I really mean nice. He is talking about the future with the two of us together, and giving me really tight hugs, and it scares me. It's like the closer he seems to be coming, the more I seem to be getting afraid of it. It's like I have thought since the beginning of this that we would have a future apart, and now that it seems more possible that our future is together, I am afraid to trust that it is true. I suppose this is normal. I'm really afraid of screwing this up, too. I'm trying not to say the wrong things, but I am trying to speak my mind, too. And occasionally, I will mention our situation, or he will. I still don't mention ow, and never say her name. I figure if he wants to say something about her, then I will comment, but not until then.
I will say, it is nice to enjoy being around him again, and our S says that, too. I hope the Christmas holidays will be okay, too. For us, and for everyone here.
