Hurtin, I wish I could give you good advice, but I don't feel like the one that can do that. Just know that I'm so sorry for what you are going through. I do have one piece of advice though, if you're not on AD's please get on them. They made all the worlds of different for me. I was just like you, I had a horrible time of trying to function without them. Please think of what it does to your DD when Daddy is so sad. Believe me I know how difficult it is, but they are children and we have to be as strong as we can for them.
Lots of Hugs sent your way.
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon