Ouch! Thought I was so much stronger!

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Rough night. I couldnt sleep at all, even with a sleeping pill. OM is going back to Vegas either today or tomorrow and he spent the night at W's house. Im certain they were up all night having sex as I have my D for the weekend. THe images in my mind are TORTURE, I wouldnt wish this on my worst enemy.

Im in so much pain, spent alot of yesterday crying and worrying that my W has moved on and no longer wants me.

Looking back on the past 2 months, I now see the telltale signs of OM. W was really depressed (IM sure she felt torn between OM and I).

She kept telling me she was starting to resent me for how things didnt work out a year ago when she was really pursuing me. I think she was just trying to validate in her own mind that the OM is a better choice. HE is totally opposite of the type of guy she goes for.

WHat should I do? Go dark? Call her sometimes to see how she's doing (she has stopped contact with me)? Try to be her friend?

Any advice is much appreciated. Hurtin.