I believe that H has always wanted a D and will always want one.
I met with him tonight and looked into his eyes and asked him to look me in the eye and tell me that he positively wants a D. He had absolutely no problem telling me "I want a D I want to be away from you and I need to be happy"
The problem with d has escalated. She wrote him an email and he responded that she was mean and slammed her for expressing her views. Definitely still in alien mode. He is still rewriting history and seeing things through his mlc eyes.
he will not accept that he was not forced into having an A so right now I can't deal with him.
he had the nerve to tell me that ... He wished I had an A and was happy but did not flaunt it in his face. I looked at him and didn't say a word for he told me the same thing sept 06 in Canada.
I told him that I was happy and he did not believe me. I said yes I am for I can do what I want when I want and there is no one to make me feel guilty.
I did a major backslide tonight but well I did a 180 too.
when things got to the point of weird and going no where and he looked like he was going to cry and I could no longer suppress the tears I said I needed to go. That I was done and I got my coat on and I got up and I left.
that is not like me. I am one to drag things out and beg and try to make it all better.
I looked at him and said do you expect me to sit here and say yes dear that if fine that you do not want to pay that? NO I am not going to.
we settled nothing. but he threatened me with filing on grounds of cruelty again and bringing friends in to testify????? not sure what the heck he is thinking.. Told him that family is not allowed for they can be persuaded to lie under oath.
his brother would lie for him.
so now I am worried I opened a can of worms tonight
He claimed he cared about me... and he wants to be friends.. well no go.. I do not want to be just friends and he did not care. I told him if he did then the 4 months that I was injured he would have asked how I was or asked the kids what it was like here and he never did. I told him that I could not even dress myself at one point. that is when I had to go for it was not worth talking to him anymore.
I messed up big time when I told him that I could not be married to a cheating liar. stupid me... how did I let this happen????
darn it. I have waited 4 months to talk and I screwed it all up.
m24 yrs h 50 me 47 s 21 s 17 left 5-30-06, and 12-4-06 still gone.............
