I don't think you understand. I had not desires or feeling like this in the past. I am also not saying I want to have an affair. What I am saying Is I NOW feel like what Our spouses have said they were feeling.
I have no support from my wife I have no intamacy for my wife My Wife does not Hear me when I talk. I am making plans without my Wife in mind. and now I have learned that I do not need my Wife.
Now I would prefure all of the above but even that is fading.
The only thing right now That I am putting above MY NEEDS is my son's. At onetime I would have set myself on fire for my Wife. Now if she asked me to it would be "ya right".
Now My son I still would and can prove it by staying in this sitch for soo long. I am putting my own happyness aside for my son. I am learning how to slip alittle Me happy time in between. It amaizes me that alot of people her comment on how strong I am for puttng up with wife. that is not how I look at it. I am strong for my son. but I am weak man when it comes to my wife. A real man would have stopped this crap when it first started. I have the OMAH Phone number. A real man would have called that day. A real man would not have begged his cheating wife for a chance to prove he was better that the OM who was cheating on his wife. Sorry I guess it was vent time. I am not putting myself down now. The above was the old me. I am stronger now and am getting stronger everyday. It is strange but I gave my word at the time that I would not contact the OM and I DO KEEP MY WORD. But........ I wish something would happen.Then all promises are off. I would find more Pictures. I wish somehow I would come into contact with the OM. Because this time my eyes are open. I will not be hit by a sucker punch. I am ready this time. Hey it may not sound like it but I am having a really good day. You can still have good day and still say your mind..
talk to ya all later I am on my way to work on my hot Rod (1965 mustang) bye Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
