I think you have a love-hate thing going on with your husband, and most of have that with our WASs. We just want to go back to them, but I DON'T WANT the crazy lady who replaced the woman I loved, and I venture you don't want that old husband back either. I'm sorry, and I know you love your H. and he's the fathe rof your kids, but I don't see you as losing that much from what you've described. As time goes on, your open wound will heal over with steely resolve, and you're not going to want that same old husband either.
AMEN! That is exactly how it feels and it is like torture. I have not been so dark lately, even letting him know he was always welcome for my brother's dinner and could join us for Thanksgiving Football in the park or at the ritual Christmas movie at the theatres. His eyes welled up with tears, he must miss the family so much. We did go to the movies together and play at the park the next day. He stopped by my brother's but guess what. No one invited him in so he just stood at the porch made an excuse that he had to study and left the kids. I was at my house napping still. I did not know they would exclude him but he would not have stayed anyways.
I do miss and love my old best friend. I feel like he is gone but that I will love him forever like I promised. But this stranger is even lower than the way some of our single men behave. It is so bizarre to hear a single drunk- ex- con -young- man scold my H's behavior!
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Me:38 H:39 MLC M:10 R:23 years D6 S3 Bomb: Easter, 2007 "Every day may not be good, but there's something good in every day."
