Yesterday was extremely hard for me. First time in 16 years that I wasnt with my W on Thanksgiving. The reason for that is because she was having Thanksgiving at her house with OM and our D. :-(
I really struggled all day with obsessive thoughts. Spent alot of time on the computer trying to learn about affairs. I just couldnt let it go. Finally went to bed at 12:30am with the help of a sleeping pill, without that I wouldnt have slept at all.
This morning W called and asked what time we are exchanging her today. We agreed on 12pm and I also asked if she could bring D's math flash cards as I wanted D to practice math this weekend. She said ok and I thanked her. I sounded upbeat and like I was doing ok. Truth is that Im Hurtin4certain.
Hurtin: 32 WAW: 30 D: 8 Bomb: 10/05 Sep: 12/05 Back together 8/07 Bomb (OM): 11/07 Filed for D (me): 12/07
