I don't want to jinx a good thing so I am continuing to post and clear my over active mind. We had a nice evening last night at the curling club, won the game and I had a beer too many. I do notice that I pay attention to almost everything as does my W. There was one point when I talked about a fellow player who is quite ill and got a little emotional and my W pointed it out to me and said I should not get so emotional. I have done a few teary emotional speeches and stuff so she is really on the look out. Other than that, I have been able to put a few good days together and we have just been friends. I get over zealous and excited so I just have to make an extra effort to just relax and don't push or expect too much.
I know that I can expect and want a hug or something loving and if I don't get it I get crushed in a way and we fall back a few or many steps. It is so hard to just be a friend in a way, when one wants it all. That is why I find this helpful since it prepares me in a way and tells me to just take a few deep breaths and take every moment as it comes with no expectations.
We are going out for dinner and might even do a couples massage, I have never done it, and suggested it to my W so maybe she is up for it. Just have to be careful again because I am so looking forward to the weekend so just take it as it comes. There will be a fire burning in more than just the fireplace.
I hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving, and if you are northern folks that you are staying warm.
She knows that I go on some chatline but I have not shared anything with her. I guess it is something that is best left as is. I also told her that I am emailing someone from here and she did not ask anything else.
