New to Piecing -- again

[peaceful_spirit]

Okay, here's where my hard work comes into play. I have this urge to have a talk with H... but I won't.

Last Thanksgiving was really bad. Without going into detail, he was still living in his appartment, but we had agreed to work on the M and he had been promising me that he wasn't in contact with OW. Let's just say, that last Thanksgiving, I discovered that wasn't the case. And he was so nasty about it when I confronted him about it. It was a bad Thanksgiving. The whole Thanksgiving weekend, I was SICK... just trying to figure out how much more I could take. So by the end of the weekend, I broke down and told him to go and that I wouldn't live like this.

SO, flash forward a year. i started imagining all these scenerios in my head... about OW contacting him to wish him a Happy TGiving... and him feeling conflicted by it. I almost spoke up on several occasions yesterday. Then I told myself that I was imagining this scenerio in my head. I had the urge all day to check his cell phone, but I didn't.

I am still fighting these urges. I feel like I want to ask him of OW has contacted him. But then I tell myself that that would do not good. It would accomplish nothing.

Anyway, I'm struggling.