Part of my H's problem is that he is this vision of some grand life with a big house, big SUV blah blah blah. He wants to get this financial stuff divided up bw is so he can proceed w/ making it happen for himself (and I believe he is making these plans w/ OW). Early MLC alright.

We're still managing the $$ together for now and bills are being paid ok...he seems to think we can do this w/out lawyers to save the $$. But I said to him that's only if I agree to whatever he wants. I'm thinking I'm going to have to retain a lawyer to ensure I'm taken care of properly.

He's feeling guilty?? I know this is probably true...but man he is not showing it. This is why I am posting on the MLC forum because I really want to have a better understanding of what is really going on with him. I don't see any end is sight as things are actually progressing and I'm wondering how far down this road he will go before he wakes up??

"Believe none of what you hear and only half of what you see", but he is quite serious about all this. But I still don't want to believe in my heart that he is capable of the much cruelty!

I know about the rollercoaster, I'm obviously on it...but how do I keep from feeling like I'm going to throw up all the time!!
J~