All hope is lost/help

[Evie]

Had a really good shopping trip with H. Got what we needed to get and conversation was mainly about work and D1's trip abroad.

H dropped me off and came in for coffee and to look at all the presents that we hd bought, H asked what the plans were for xmas?. I asked him what did he want to do?. He said he would like to be there early for when the boys woke up, would I mind if he helped put the boys to bed and stay over ? I said I didn't mind at all that it would be lovely and would we do our usual rountine of a takeaway away meal and wrapping the boys presnts? He said yes he would love to do that it would be great and could he cook breakfast for everyone on xmas day? I said again that would be lovely and we were going over to my moms in the afternoon to eat. He wasn't happy with that, one reason is that my mom and brother both smoke and they will smoke in front of the kids and he didn't want them subjected to the smoke. I said I had compromised on xmas this year, the kids wanted to go and by going to my moms I controlled the time of the visit and I would be home early in the evening. I asked him what he planned to do and he said he may see his dad. (I don't know whether he thought I would be cooking as usual, but he did say he didn't want to be here when my Mom came round- my mom isn't speaking to H)

H said the evening had been great and he had enjoyed it. It was probably not good DB but I texted him a txt from the heart and said I had enjoyed the evening, he was a fab dad and it would mean the world to the boys to have him stay for xmas. I didn't get a text back, but i'm not worried that I didn't, I felt my text was the right thing to do at the time.

I'm really pleased today. I will take it for what it was and not read/analsye or have high hopes from it. I hope that he saw me all pink and fluffy and light. I looked good too.

XD