not a peep

[Trixi]

H has been at his sis's since last Friday and he's made no contact. (Of course, neither have I so I guess we're even...?)

I am still quite sad having bouts of crying. But one good thing, I have made some more progress with regard to sorting thru stuff.

Over on the MB site I was told I was being 'bamboozled', that H is cheating by going out on dates and I should immediately go into Plan B (aka Go Dark). One person really gave me a good 2x4 on my head when they said "Do you think that little of yourself that you are prepared to wait around while he looks for a replacement?" Yipes.

Here is where I get stuck in circular thinking: All WAS's are convinced that D is the only answer for their happiness. They all say things (and do things) that by logical standards, would indicate that we LBS's should just throw in the towel and move on. But we don't. And why is that? It's because we have the hope that they will be returning. And some of the WASs do return. So how can you ever tell which one actually means what they say and which one doesn't?

I am thinking tomorrow I will send him a text wishing him a happy thanksgiving if he doesn't beat me to it. They're 3 hours ahead, so I will stall a little bit and see what happens. I am still supposed to pick him up from the airport on Monday and I am (stupidly) hoping that he has had some great epiphany (for the positive) while he's been gone. HAHAHAHA. If he had had an epiphany, he would have called. Why do I insist in hoping??

Boy, it's this sort of thing that can make a person want to never risk getting hurt again. This is just horrible.

Biggest fear--I do a Plan B/Go Dark and he starts D proceedings/tells me to move out before I am ready.

To all-Happy Thanksgiving!