OK so it's been about 3 weeks now I guess. And I'm not sure. I don't feel happy anymore. I feel like things are going right back to where they were. That my needs are thrown right out the window- again.

I feel like the me that I found has been lost again- whoosh- gone in the blink of a month.

I feel manipulated, used, and like he's only back because he ran out of money and needed me to bail him out.

How do I tell H that the new me won't take this anymore? How do I tell him that I'm not happy and maybe he is right- we just can't live together?

I'm tired of bending. I'm always the one who is supposed to make others happy and please others-- I'm done with that. It's time for Sox and with H here- that has been lost.

When life gives you lemons, trade them for limes and break out the tequila!!-- Soxfan2007

7/1/05 Bomb
7/20/05 H moves out
2.5 years of Rollercoaster
10/30/07 H moves back home