Get Me On A Smoother Ride....Need Advice #7

[SueS]

Hurtin-

I'd like to believe that, but knowing my H, he doesn't think I'm going anywhere. If I start doing some of the things I have in mind for goals....organizing, clearing some things up...etc., he might start to wonder.

So, H called me at work this afternoon to ask if school had called. Again, another strange call. He knows I'd call him if they called me to pick D3 up. She's fine too. I told him no and then we talked briefly about a few minor things.

I picked D3 up, we ran two errands and came home to pack. I decided to let D3 stay up until after H came home so she could spend time with him. H called about 8:40, obviously from his car. He said he'd called to tell me he'd forgotten to let me know of something I could have had for dinner that he'd left in the fridge?? He asked if D3 was awake. I said yes and then proceeded to tell him that as soon as he got home, I had a few things I wanted to load into the car...etc. He said....Well, I won't be home until late. HUH??? He told me he was going out. I said....Tonight? I did the....where are you going thing. He gave me the brief rundown, which included going out with "everyone" from his old office. That's where OW works. I'm positive she works on Wed. nights. I was silent. He said, I'll help you put everything in the car in the morning. He asked why D3 wasn't in bed yet. My response was, Well, I kind of thought you'd be home tonight since we're leaving tomorrow. I again was silent. I just told him to "be safe". He said he would and he'd see me later. I'm just numb. I can't cry and I can't even get angry right now. All kinds of nasty comments ran through my mind, but didn't make it out of my mouth. I wanted to tell him....Now I truly know where your priorities lie.....Now I know that your child doesn't even rank #1 with you......Oh, and don't stick your d*ck in anyone! That last one was the worst one, but I couldn't help it. He left work early to go out with friends & possibly OW vs. spending time with us or even just D3. He could have come home and ignored me, but at least spend the time with her. Okay, I am angry, but I think the AD's have calmed me a little. I'll probably cry later.

Okay, I need to get D3 to sleep and I need rest too.

Everyone, have a great Thanksgiving.

SueS