N2M thank you I have read the rainbow bridge poem and I know he is in a better place and no longer has to take meds twice a day and is with my other golden and the kitty he use to love so much.
my sons little dog suddenly has been my shadow she is a princess dog part sheltie and bordercollie and well.. she spent the day outside with me today followed me all over the place. It was to weird she has never done that before. She does not leave the yard so I did not have to worry about her and just went about my raking etc. right now she is on my bed fast asleep totally worn out for she is 13 yrs old.
H called today wanted to go to lunch ... I said NO. I knew he wanted to talk settlement and I had things I needed to get done like bake pies. He was a little annoyed but then got really annoyed for d heard him on the phone the machine had picked up. She came in and started yelling at me that he can't come for dinner etc. She had a fit today for she wanted to get me a puppy for Christmas and I do not want one. I told H who was helping her that I did not want one and he said he understood.
I am the meanest person in the world today and she hates me. She sent me an email that tore my up one side and down the other and well. I decided it is time her father hears what she is saying and I sent it to him.
when he was on the phone this am h made a comment about her not wanting him here. I told him that we are no longer a family and we are not ever going to be again. He said in a stern voice "i am her father" I said yes you are and I am her mother but we are not a family any more. This is the way it is going to be.
so not sure what is going to happen tomorrow.
my head is spinning tonight. I just want to crawl in bed and hide from the world.
m24 yrs h 50 me 47 s 21 s 17 left 5-30-06, and 12-4-06 still gone.............
