I'm over at bf's mom's apt in the retirement complex. He's in the kitchen cooking and baking up a storm. We're having our T-giving dinner today and then we'll have leftovers galore-- yippee!
I left my kitties at home with plenty of food and water, so I'm going to stay here a couple of days. That way he can fuss over me and his mom.
It's not that I've expected him to leave her and come and do stuff for me, it's just that I had hoped for more interest in my situation. Anyway.
Today on the phone when I was driving into town we were having a heated discussion on the phone (a daily occurrence nowadays) and he called me "Mom!" Great. I know he lumps all females in the same annoying demanding bucket.
Journey, you're going to flip when I tell you that not only did I get myself out of the house and out to the car alone, I got the wheelchair in the back seat of the car by myself. I dragged a patio chair over to the car and sat in it while I wrestled the wheelchair into the back seat! Then I met some friends for lunch and they helped me with the chair. Then I went by bf's house where my rolling walker was waiting in a box. The neighbor's grandson came over and put it together for me and put it in the car. THEN I went to Target where I asked someone to bring the electric cart out to me (and they did) and I bought some TV tables to eat on. Then here to the apt where bf unloaded all the stuff. One of his daughters is also here. I can't get over how beautiful this apartment is!
Things okay at the moment... but bf is pushingpushingpushing himself. I know how important his mom is to him and he's driving himself relentlessly to make sure everything in her world is exactly as it should be. I did this for my late H. It takes it out of you... he needs sleep. I hope he doesn't have a heart attack or a stroke. One good thing: he's not smoking while in this apartment.
Now. If you THINK you KNOW something else.... on that other side of things.... that is okay. Talk to it. Embrace it. Let it run through you. It is very, very peaceful.
But. There will be something, at some point, that appears... off to your right.... don't know why... it does... tiny little thing...
don't ignore it.
IT iS. IT. It pulls at you. Maybe annoys you.. maybe pisses you off. IT is OVER THERE.
IT isn't the Light.
It's just that fcking thing that won't go away.
Relax. Breathe. Go to IT. K? YOU KNOW. It knows. And that's that.
1) something that you're grateful for or thankful about
2) REGARDING YOUR RELATIONSHIP OR YOUR PARTNER (not that your team won, or that you got a good deal on a new car)
3) IN THE LAST 48 HOURS (not something they used to do, or did when you were first married-- but something in the present)
1) 2) 3) I am very grateful for the people on this forum, especially the ones that travelled along and helped in my journey.
I am also very grateful to Michele Weiner-Davis for writing SSM.
I am very grateful to my wife for her honesty.
-NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.
I want to tell you something. I think you are a strong, capable, very attractive woman, Lillieperl. I think it took a lot of strength and character to accommodate your boyfriend's weakness by seeing past it into his need to meet his mother's needs.
Regardless of how your relationship eventually evolves with him, I think you will make the right guy a most excellent mate. I wish your boyfriend would wake up and step out of his grief.
All the best, -NOPkins-
I will ferret out an affair at any opportunity.
-An affair is the embodiment of entitlement, fueled by resentment and lack of respect. -An infidel will remain unreachable so long as their sense of entitlement exceeds their ability to reason.
Hey, guys! Just wanted to say Happy Thanksgiving to all!
I'm not too disappointed that H is not here. I'm just glad he will be home for Christmas and we will even be able to ring in a new and hopefully wonderful year together as well.
Don't know if I told you all, but I scheduled a night at a B&B in a small town about an hour from us. We'll go while he's home so we'll have at least one day/night away by ourselves while he's home for the month.
Today, I will be w/ my 3 little wonderful boys and my parents who have been so good to us. I honestly don't know how I would have done this year w/out them!!
Hope everyone has a wonderful day and long weekend (hopefully)!
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
I've been away a long time, thought I'd check in today and I find this thread. A lovely topic.
First of all, hope your ankle heels well, I am sending my best wishes to you.
Me - I am grateful for many things in my life. I am grateful that I found this forum when I did, life might have taken an unpleasant turn if it weren't for that.
I am grateful for my H and my gorgeous kids, for my sister's baby (he is here after years of infertility), and for the adventure my family is currently on.
I am grateful for the realization any restlessness within me is just that - restlessness within me. Anyone who remembers me from way back when might remember that I was craving stimulation. Boy, did I get what I wished for. H had an opportunity for an expat posting and here we are - in Europe for a couple of years. Still, there is a part of me that is restless. We've visited northern France, Paris, Tuscany, Holland, Belgium and parts of Germany in the last 3 months. My restlessness isn't due to lack of stimulation. I still have lots of work to do on myself.
