new here. Feel like dying

[ms ladybug]

Yep. That's why I told him things would have to be rock-solid before I give up my support system here and move to a place where I know NO ONE (well, except a great guy named Steve).

I honestly am more confused than I've ever been. H called me to tell me that someone's coming over to measure for carpet and would I call them to get an exact time? (Yes, we just started a $7,000 remodel job on our house.) So, we talked about the carpet and the cost of the new window, etc. And he says, "so, you just want to talk business or what?"
I said "no, I don't. I just don't know what you want right now."
He says (get this) "See. This is why I tell you your selfish. You won't talk to me, not because you care about what I want, but you don't want me to turn you down, and tell you no, because then you'll feel bad. Well, I need to go. Bye."

OK. I need to be strong and hold my ground about us working through this TOGETHER or NOT at all.