Adding my 2 cents worth...I kind of agree with Dom. Dom is giving it to you straight, and you don't like it.

One thing that bothers me about your post is the part you said that you "pretended to be someone else" and you slept with this person who is now your gf. It seems to me that your gf is the one taking all the chances of getting hurt while you and your ex continue to play games with each other.

What do you want?

What does your ex want?

Just because she admires the man you've become doesn't mean she wants you back.

If you want changes, the changes start with you. You can't change your ex or your gf. But you can change yourself.

Heed what Dom tell you. Understand that a lot of us are in this situation because of spouses like you.

alamogirl


Me - 48 (at time of 1st bomb)
H - 43
married - 16 Jul 94
no children
1st bomb - (said he was leaving) - 3 Jun 06
2nd bomb (said he was ready to file) - 10 Nov 06
H filed divorce - 17 Nov 06
Divorce finalized - 20 Jul 07