new here. Feel like dying

[ms ladybug]

Well, last night I tried talking to him about the changes I'd like to see as well. He got really angry. Said he won't go to mc with me or go to church with me, until he sees changes on my end. I told him that isn't how things work. We BOTH change, go to mc TOGETHER, or it just can't work at all.

He told me he's filing for divorce, and walked out of the house.

I think going dark is a good idea. (well, I don't know what the plans are for Thanksgiving now). My plan when I asked him to leave, was that he'd see the work that needs to be done in himself. I was thrown for a loop when he turned it all on me, and gave ME conditions for returning. I know I have things to change. I know my faults, and continue to work on myself, but I can't do it alone.

kml, I did think about what would happen if he divorced in TN. I don't know the laws there, but I know that likely I'd be STUCK. I doubt I'd be able to move out of state with the kids. So, I'd be a single mom 1500miles away from all of my family and friends.

I don't know if he'll really file. He probably will being that he's a shoot-from-the-hip full of anger kinda person. We'll see.
I might just be better off. I won't be walking on eggshells everyday waiting for him to erupt because of a toothpaste smudge on the bathroom counter, or a goldfish cracker on the floor of the car.