The fat lady is warming up.... 2

[big_tuna]

OF/alamogirl et al.... BIG TUNA here .....still a struggle...WAW has me still on a rollercoaster...alternates between little contact to 4 of 5 nights one week wine and visits to our house....she even passed out candy on Halloween to our neighbors...its bizarre.....tomorrow me her and the kids going to her sisters house for Thanksgiving just like last 24 years....i could have declined and kept kids at home but taking the high road still....i feel sometimes great about what im doing and sometimes like such an idiot.....we have been separated 13 months and divorced for 7 but i still keep hoping for a miracle....why?.....seems like even after all ive been through its not getting better...work/finances/house upkeep all seem overwhelming.....i feel like im losing it at times....gotta keep on going for my two wonderful boys....hope all is well with you guys here and Happy thanksgiving to all....Bt