She came home and was all happy after a nice vacation. I guess I was hoping a little too much that there would be some love or emotion but it was very clinical and that classic hug that just says let me go. I just listened and tried to smile but I know that she could see that I was sad. I tried so hard not to do it, but oh well.
It is so hard for me to patient and not hope or dream in a way. I want so badly just to burst the bubble and move on and I know that she is dealing with a pile of emotions and I think some or lots of quilt. We are just doing the everyday things and I feel that everything else is being buried or avoided but maybe that is part of the process.
At least I did not break down, just fell asleep, and boy did I want to roll over and be close to her.
Saw the OM last night at the curling club and he is ignoring me more than before, I don't know if that is good, but I think so and I will do the same. There was a brief instant when I thought we could be civil or even friends, we were friends before this, but I think that is going the other way now. Not a great loss for me, yet I know that for my W it is a big void since we used to do dinners and many social things together such as walking the dogs and drinks.
You make your bed you got to sleep in it.
I will try to feel better and I will try hard to be patient and say good things come to those who wait,
