How Many Days to Go?

[RedHeadWife]

I'm thinking a big part of my problem right now is we're getting really close to the "anniversary" of the BIG BOMB which was in January last year. There are a lot of holidays that mark significant events & I'm going to just have to blow them off.

I know on MLK Day was when he sent the $80 worth of flowers to OW saying "wish I could be there." They had the day off, but H had to stay @ home w/ oldest son b/c he had the day off too while I was at work.

Then there was Valentine's Day which wasn't much fun. He did get me some flowers, but later told me he didn't even want to.

Then there was his bday which I got him a very expensive watch that he wanted, but we weren't "together" then.

Also, it absolutely kills me, but for the life of me, I cannot remember anything about Clark's 1st bday party. I know it would have been just an extended family thing, as we never did big parties w/ lots of kids when the boys were turning 1 & 2, but I can't remember anything about it. I'm sure I've chosen to just block it out b/c it probably was very uncomfortable and hurtful for me.

Oh well, I'm just hanging on the fact I know I'll "get over this" and things are going to be ok!