Some more journaling... Saw the kids tonight. S having some major meltdowns. Not exactly sure yet what's going on with him. More on that later. Everything went pretty well tonight. No back sliding from W so far. Still good interaction with her. She actually admitted that she missed me Monday and said that it was hard for her to admit that. Wow...guess that's positive, especially coming from "I'm happier when you aren't around." Also, S came up to us while we were just chatting a bit and said "I want you guys to get back together." Nobody has ever said anything like that to him and he's 4. Sometimes kids are way smarter than you think they are. That was a bit in your face for the W, especially when she keeps on saying they are just fine. When I was putting S to bed he said to me, "are you going to stay daddy? I'm sad when you leave." That's a bit hard to take for me. At least W is admitting that before she felt she's totally done, but after the Retro weekend she's seriously reconsidering a lot of things. Her feelings are totally confused. I told her to take her time and figure things out, have some patience and see how things go.
M: 31 W: 31 M: 7 T: 8 S:4 D:2 Bomb dropped: too many to count or remember, 12/17/07 last one S on 9/2/07 W sent off D papers 12/31/07. Me trying to live life and hope she returns one day.
