WAW hasn't walked yet, but emotionally dead

[mako]

This was my first night alone with W moved out. It actually wasn't so bad, and I didn't even leave the house. Just talked to a friend on the phone for a while, and played some games online with a couple other old friends. Kept my mind off things at least, but I haven't really been too sad today.

W called earlier today...I wasn't mentally prepared, I expected that a friend was calling and didn't check the number (if you are DBing and have caller id, ALWAYS check the number so you'll be prepared if it's your S). She asked if she could use a TV that we don't use, it's just sitting in the closet. I feel like I was kind of rude, all I could hear her say was "I'm ripping your heart out, but I also want your stuff," so I was short with her and not too nice. But I ultimately agreed she could take it, and it wasn't all bad, we joked a little about some things. She ended saying she hoped I had a great Thanksgiving.

Later I may have backslid a bit...I kept thinking that I wasn't nice about the TV, so I called...she didn't answer so I just left a message saying I was sorry about that and hoped she'd have a good first night in the new place...she never called me back, so that call may have been a mistake. Nothing I can do about it now though, so can't worry about it.

Anyway, I will go see family for Thanksgiving. I plan to not call W all weekend, let her know there is no pursuit on, she can call me if she wants.