Why can't I do this....

[Hurtin4certain]

Hound... Ive seen this so many times before. She thinks you are the reason for EVERYTHING bad in her life. You have to remember that at the base of anger is pain. She's in pain man. All you can do is validate her feelings.

I agree with Braveheart, this is going to take a long time. Focus on baby steps right now, one foot in front of the other. If you continue to focus on your future, it will make it seem impossible. But trust me, Ive seen people survive this type of stuff.

IN the meantime, you need to change Hound. Not for her, but for Hound. You've done some bad things in your past but you still have time to make up for them. Open yourself to healing and be willing to work HARD to change yourself for the better.