Today went by way too fast so far. I still have plenty of work to do, to prepare for my appointment with my L in the morning. I'm still feeling great though.
Felt a little stressed earlier today. Not too bad at all, just not as clear and/or confident as I'd like. I was trying to make sure I do everything I can to help H out too if it wouldn't hurt me, and not to pass up a genuinely good deal (if it was). And I know I am. My H said he was willing to run his deal by my L, and was continuing to pressure me into signing the quit claim by tomorrow. He was telling me I'm stubborn and that it wouldn't cost me anything to sign that for him, that he helped me out in the last year by not filing for D, blah blah blah. I talked with my brother briefly around noon, but that didn't leave me feeling any more clear.
My C called with a cancellation today, and there was enough time for me to catch a bus and make it there for that... so that was pretty nice. A student from Rwanda sat in for the session, and she offered me her advice at the end after he was done. He said I am not stubborn, I actually need to be more so. She said to know what I want and know that it's really okay to have that. They were both very helpful. Good karma today, I'd say.
I emailed my L right before I left the house, and he got back to me saying he didn't recommend the meeting with H. He was very clear. He said no matter how good of a proposal, he would still advise me against signing that tomorrow.... so it'd be a waste of time and money to all meet. He said I'd need to have a package together for my financial support, ready to submit to the courts, first... and that could take weeks. Makes perfect sense. I wasn't clear on that before. Feels great to be taking action on getting that package together in order to file. I know I'm doing everything I can, and I'm doing for me.
So, now I'll be getting back to H and there will likely be more spew to ignore. Things are looking up though.
Onward and upward.
Me: 37 M: 14 yrs Separated 10/06; Filed for D 12/07 Life is good.
