I'm sorry you are in this spot. Unfortunately, it sounds like you are at ground zero.
Rule #1.. Believe half of what you see and none of what you hear. They are in a different world.
Sounds like there was a little back and forth.. sounds like (not trying to be harsh) you had a window and it's closed for the moment.
I don't believe all hope is lost.. just an uphill battle for you.
Please.. Please take my advice on this.. get on the Prozac. If you feel comfortable enough, let folks at work know you are going throug some family issues. How much you divulge is up to you. Trust me.. I've almost gotten fired and that's after I let a few "select" people know at work. I finally had to make more folks aware so I wouldn't get fired.
You will find that EVERYONE will stand by you. It's amazing.. 1. It's ugly and nobody wants to hear/deal with it. 2. They are not going to hammer someone going through this
Do the AD's. I HATED the AD's, but I had to do it. Now that I'm a little farther along, I feel much better and have gotten off the AD's. You'll know it when you get there.
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This has become more of a circle of friends and a "support group" more than anything. Read up on other folks sitchs (I appreciate you reading and posting on mine!!) and respond.
You'll be amazed at how many people are in the same boat.. BTDT (been there done that) and can smack you with a dose of reality.
You are in the right place!!
Have you gotten and read DR? Would be a good start.
My email addr is in my profile.. feel free to blow up my email if need be!!
