Long and bumpy road

[Startingover2]

Counselor thought it was good. She also thought it would be good to wait until after Thanksgiving. Right now I am too emotional and wound up and want my letter to be not given in anger, but factual and reality. She also encouraged me to keep in mind the letter and going dark are to protect myself...not given as an ultimatum because knowing him, chances are he will not want to be shown up and will continue walking. He is so prideful and wants to be the dumper and not the dumpee. His mother told him that in a letter she wrote him when he left over a year ago...you left (me) before she had a chance to leave you.

Yuck...I am so tired I think I can sleep for days. But then I try and sleep and I can't. I think I have gotten maybe 3 hours total in the past 3 nights. This poor baby will come out a stress ball.

Only heard from dh once today. He asked if I needed him to pick up something when he was working today for Thanksgiving. I just replied that I already had my oldest daughter pick it up...thanks anyway. Never heard from him again.

Please keep the words coming. I check this board multiple times a day...especially when I feel weak. I hope you are doing well.