I was just trying to catch up with your threads and saw the one titled A Favor and I read what you said. It was beautiful and I for one can completely see where it was such. As one who has had the experience of living through all the awful stuff with my MLCer (as Liss put it--one of the top 5 loonies here) reading your thread reminded me of the peace I had last summer for the few weeks he was gone.
I can't really come up with a line for your H. He is just as crazy as a loon, but we all know that.
You, on the other hand, are an amazing woman and deserve happiness and peace.
Hugs, Sun
"Tell me what you plan to do with your one wild and precious life." Mary Oliver