Long and bumpy road

[Startingover2]

Ok, here are my preliminary thoughts. All input welcome...Thanks.



Dear DH:

Once again I know you are still maintaining a relationship with OW. You never called it off with her and if you did it didn’t last long. Please don’t waste your breath or text messages defending your innocence. I do not want to hear it. Let’s lay it out. It never ended and that is something I cannot live with nor should I.

The lies and unfaithfulness have become too much for me. I have worked so hard to trust you again only to find out that you are not a trustworthy person. You violated my trust, not once but repeatedly for all these months. I am no longer special to you, I am just one of a crowd. It just won’t work for you to hopscotch between OW and myself, sleeping with us both and trying to make it all seem so normal. It is actually pretty disgusting and a clear lack of integrity on both of your parts.

I think it is best that you stay away. I cannot and will not live this way. I have family and great friends that will love and support me through the rest of this pregnancy and help me make the final preparations for our daughter’s birth. I so wanted to do this with you, for you to be my rock, my best friend and my partner. To bring our child into this world with love and not secrets and deception.

I will contact you and keep you posted regarding our daughter with doctor visits and her progress, etc. I will be making a doctor’s appointment this week to be checked for STD’s. That could be very dangerous to her and don’t want to risk it.