If you can get into your councelor they might be able to help you write the letter in a way that will best work with the sitch and wording your feelings.
Sorry to be so blunt but you needed the 2x4 IMO.
(((((hugs)))))
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez