Up - I did send RCR an email this morning - thanks for the suggestion. I was wondering the same thing...would something click? Or is that just hope on my part.
Shades - you know, you reminded me that I did tell my H that I didn't believe in D and he said he knew and that is why he wanted to separate now so we could get the clock ticking on the separation because he would have to wait 2 years because he knew I wouldn't sign.
Still Hoping - Boy, your one sentence really hit home (about not making it a game and do things for you). I think I am focusing so much on what I am supposed to be doing and not thinking about my situation specifically. Does that make sense?
Forlorn - you are right about a letter....would you give it and leave, or have him read it with me still there? I do know that I express myself better in writing than verbally. My H is much better verbally, than in writing.
Angelica and Cinders- I do have one friend, poor girl, that I have been confiding in. She has been a life saver for me. I am careful what I tell my parents, as my father is very angry at my H right now. And I have here....the boards. All of you have done so much for me...I don't know what I would have done these last five months...Cinders - what your H told you is exactly what I am afraid of - I don't know that I could be strong enough to weather that...
Communicating with him would be a 180 for me. We had (have?) problems with that. We both keep things bottled up. We don't fight, scream, yell, etc.
Thanks everyone. So far, I am better today and ready to tackle this proposal and determine my definition of fair.
