thank you so much for the support. I am ok have teary times but not as bad as I imagined it might be. He was my baby and I miss him so much.
H emailed today and I am so confused..... then he called when I was out and left a msg telling me he is sorry and that he is not sure what to say and that he knows how much I am in pain.
Not sure what to say to him right now the email is so weird I sent him and email on sunday and all it said was thank you nothing else. I didn't know what else to say to him
------------- You're welcome. I am sorry for your loss of C. I know how important he was to you. I saw over the years how much you loved him, and he loved you unconditionally. I was probably jealous, bit did not have that unconditional love for you as he did. He deserved it. I have tried to find balance in my life. I do care about you. It was clear when I saw you kiss C goodbye Sat. morning. I'm sorry you're in pain.I have come to realize that the reasons I would try to live with you again are to lessen guilt and to be around the kids more. Please allow me to find that balance. I need to complete the divorce and to do that I need you to agree to terms, including alimony. I want to continue to communicate with you without animosity or fear, and truthfully, about the kids and how we are each doing individually. I hope we get to the point where we can become ex-spouses who have remained friends. I want to remain a part of the "kids" lives, as much as they need me and allow. Thank you. Have a good day, H.
m24 yrs h 50 me 47 s 21 s 17 left 5-30-06, and 12-4-06 still gone.............
