My Wife wants out..still!!

[christarn]

marky b...when I left, I was increibly angry, but I tried, oh did I try, we went to MC and scheduled another session;however, in the midst of all of our conversations and him begging and pleading for me to come home, and me questioning my decision as to what I should/shouldn't do, I received our (joint) cell phone bill...to which I saw he had been calling and texting an old girlfriend...from then on angry took on a whole new meaning, it was then I went into full D mode. Believe me, I was an angry bitter woman 3-4 months before I left, but this put the icing on my cake. I figured at that point all of his pleas were just words with no meaning, just words, he had already found somebody else...so me, just being a bullet out of a shot gun kind of person...didn't go to the 2nd counseling appt, instead went to attorney and set things in motion for our D. After my first few months alone, learning to live again, and some harsh realities, I realized what I had done, and what was about to happen. I hate what I have done, I just found out last night, that my H was in a wreck while riding his motorcycle...last week, he didn't even bother to call me. Not only am I a nurse...but a huge worrier...I have all sorts of images going thru my head now. Luckily he escaped with just a badly bruised shoulder...but it's just the fact that I should have ben there, and I wasn't.

Being in this place for all of us, is a hard place to be. No matter what our situation is. Hopefully we can all learn from eachother, and one of us will be the next success story holler at me anytime with questions!! take care, christa