H just called. I hate the fact that he sounds like he's doing so much better than me. It's been that way since he left. He says that it hasn't been all fun and games, but to a degree I think that's BS. He has gone out SOOOO often in the time we've been apart. He claims that it's his friends and people concerned for him trying to get him to go out so he doesn't go insane. I personally think some time at home with just his thoughts would do him good. I've spent LOTS of time home with my thoughts.
He moved out and is living with a friend. He spends all his time with this guy (and his girlfriend) which I think would be really annoying if I were his friend. They go out. He's gone here and there and everywhere. There's a newly remodeled restaurant in town and he's like "yea, I've been there. Same food, but nice surroundings. . . ." Whatever. It annoys me to no end. It really gets me because his expenses have been cut virtually in half and he's been getting some extra bonuses while we've been S and in the meanwhile my expenses have more than doubled to the point that I can barely afford ramen noodles, much less go out. That has made the GAL part of DBing really hard. He never offered to help with expenses he just left me in the lurch. He did just give me some money this week that I told him was appreciated, not necessary, but appreciated. Yes, I'm strapped, but I don't need his charity. I didn't ask for it and I know he's doing it because he cares and is trying to make amends.
He tells me that last night he goes out to dinner to a nice restauarant, with his roommate and roommate's girlfriend. He has the best steak he thinks he's ever had, yada, yada, yada . . . Meanwhile where am I, home doing laundry and homework. I just feel it is so unfair. Not that life is fair, but why should he get the gravy and all I get is sludge???? I work my a$$ off and what do I have to show for it?
He talks all the time about what a great cook his roommate is and how awesome his girlfriend's cooking is. He says that he loves "good Indian food." I don't know that he ever really had Indian food until his friend's girlfriend started cooking for the guys. And apparently she cooks for them often. All I hear is "she does this, friend does this, she cooks this and it is so good, man I love good Indian food, the other night she made us this . . . ." and so on and so on. Know what? That isn't one of my abilities. If you love her cooking so much and what she does for you, marry her. I don't think his roommate would appreciate it much and it'll be a he11 of a surprise to her too. It just gets so annoying.
Arg, just having a really bad night.
Me: 37 H: 35 M: 6 T: 8 2 cats, 1 dog, 0 kids S: 09/10/07 D started 9/21/07 (I stalled) Piecing: 11/9/07
