I don't know if I should continue to DB.

[forward]

W8, I am kind of in the mindset where I don't really care if he is peeking or not. It's not enough. He needs to take actions, and a lot of them.

I think some Hs look to try to recapture what they had with us. I don't think my H wants to accept that that time is over and it is time to be a father.

Crushee attraction is from both vulnerability and loneliness. I mean, total rejection from H at most vulnerable time of my life has me looking at men who put their families first.

I was also thinking of H's spew from the past and his attacks on my character and I just felt that there is no reason to be with someone who seems to think of me like that.