You can do this. I've been following your threads, and I know you can. You can keep it together. Tonight's gonna be rough, and the rest of this week is too, but it's NOT too big for you.
I know it hurts, it more than hurts, this plain kills. I swear the feeling of betrayal is worse than anything. I just went through this part about 3 weeks ago so I know.
You're strong enough, able enough, and smart enough to drive on. You're based exactly where you need to be, on your daughters.
It hurts because you care. That's because you are a warm caring person. That is why you will make it through this. Love and care take real strength. You have it. You will make it.
Big brotherly hugs. Lots and lots.
I'm sending you an email too.
-------------- The Forlorn Hope:...A picked body of men detached to the front to begin the attack....Fortified, meaning strengthened to stand...and thus, positioned for victory