WAW hasn't walked yet, but emotionally dead

[mako]

Well, W is moving out today for good. She's been packing and in the process of moving a couple days now (taking several trips). I still can't believe it has come to this...

We are still getting along, it feels so weird though. Last night we went and got take out together, it was just fine, almost like it used to be (except she paid for her own meal). Then we get home and there's no where to eat cause her boxes are everywhere. We eat and chit chat a little, then she just goes back to listening to music and packing. She appears to have no emotion whatsoever about what's going on.

Before she left today I told her I wanted to say something, she was like "What? Huh? Yeah sure say it." like she was so surprised that I had something to say. So I said "I am sad by all this and wish it wasn't happening, but I understand and accept that this is what you want. That's all, I just wanted you to know." Possibly this is backsliding, but I felt I had to say it, this is one of the more significant days in my life and needed to say something before she left. All she said was "I knew this would be bad," then "Ok, I'll see you later." Totally cold and unemotional. So she left, then later she called to leave a message that she'd pick me up some groceries on her way home before the next trip.

I can't GAL tonight, I just feel sick, unless I can get up to run or lift weights after dinner...I knew this day was coming but had no clue I'd feel so bad.