Why can't I do this....

[houndfan]

Dom,

thanks for your feedback. However, things took a very bad turn last night and I think that we may really be set back a lot. I got the same flu that she had over hte weekend and was down for the count. Puking etc saturday night and most of sunday am.

In the am sunday she started to get on me about not helping her with breakfast etc. Started to feel like the old R. I tried to explain to her that I was really sick and that I should not be near the food etc. Fell on deaf ears.

I finally tried to go do some chores that have been neglected during which I was again puking. So rather than deal with the nagging, I decided to go back where I have been staying.

Well my phone was ringing so much I finally took her call. She was screaming at me that I had not done 2 things that she had asked me to do the day before I got sick. She was so angry the call turned back to you are not allowed here any more, you are not to have the kids without my approval. The same controlling crap that we have fought for years.

Well, I went back to the house to try to finish the chores and she immediately asked me to leave, but I didn't and it turned into a huge fight with her hitting me and really being violent. What wasn't working? I should have just left or not come over all all UGH!

Well, we are back to where we were weeks ago with the bitterness and shortness in her tone with me. Blaming me for everything again. At least that had begun to subside somewhat last week. I am trying to 180 the best that I can, doing things that I would normally never do, and it seems to be too little too late.

She told me today about Thanksgiving that she wants to have mom and dad show up with lots of brothers and sisters and have a great big meal. well we can't have that because we both come from difficult pasts. But I said to her, "if that is what you want, let's do something to make it happen". To which she said she wants to have a great day but not with me.

UGH... and so it continues, I am trying so hard to detach and move on with some happiness for me and she continues to call and pull me into her drama. (and she says that I am full of drama) now the internet is not working and this is my fault because the dog dug up a line in the backyard (which is not internet related btw) well had I taken care of the line in teh yard or given the dog away like I was suppose to this would never had happened and now she can not run her business.

I offered the computer at the place that I am staying and she turned me down flat. I think I am fighting a really horrible losing battle here, can't do anything even close to right.