Oh, thanks, Bear, for your shiny words on my thread...I just read them...You're right, you're right, you're right, of course. I have woken up from my terrible sitch and I'm doing something about it. It has been less than 3 months since SBH & I started this trek, which, at times, feels like an eternity of being bashed and bashed about all the wrong I have done, but in the big picture, is a miniscule amount of time. Every once in awhile I feel a GREAT sense of releive, hope & joy about the fact that I WILL NOT take a job that makes me feel tired and overwhelmed and bad all the time. It will be good. I just have to keep pluggin'!