Hives are fading, students survived the test. Now I'm worrying it was too easy!
Thanks for your words re the niece situation too. She's in her late 20's actually, and has had a rough time of adult life as well. (three kids, custody of none, a real head case for a mom). It does seem as though she's "reaching out" rather than "looking in", I will pray for her. (CJ's a bit more skeptical as her calls seem to coincide with the approaching months' end...when welfare pay and the like tend to be stretched thin).
Oh well, it's the weekend for me . We're going to the green house to buy some herbs and veggies, maybe a few other plants. That's our plan for the weekend, plant what we can. (being so far north, there is still a risk of frost here ).
Must go now as CJ has to check something on the computer. We just had high-speed digital interent hooked up so at least I can sign on without dialing up and waiting!
I can't stand not checking on you all....tonight? Hope so!
Wow. You have so much going on! Glad to hear the hives have abated!
You mentioned on LL's thread (??) that you were having some of the same feelings she was talking about...what's up with that??? (Or, maybe I misunderstood?)
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
The niece is sounding more and more troublesome, but less and less credible. Can you change your phone number so she doesn't know how to call? Getting her out of your life is probably the best option. Talking with a lawyer about how best to do that might not be a bad idea, either. She's harrassing you now, it sounds like. GOOD LUCK!!!!!!
Oh, thanks, Bear, for your shiny words on my thread...I just read them...You're right, you're right, you're right, of course. I have woken up from my terrible sitch and I'm doing something about it. It has been less than 3 months since SBH & I started this trek, which, at times, feels like an eternity of being bashed and bashed about all the wrong I have done, but in the big picture, is a miniscule amount of time. Every once in awhile I feel a GREAT sense of releive, hope & joy about the fact that I WILL NOT take a job that makes me feel tired and overwhelmed and bad all the time. It will be good. I just have to keep pluggin'!
Hey SB. Thanks for coming by my thread. Glad the hives have dwindled and you're getting a handle on the neice issue. Things sound like they are moving along well for you...
hope you don't really feel the way my thread makes me sound like I feel...sure some of it is real..but alot of it is my own venting and making much more out of all the negatives than need be made...
sometimes I notice that when I focus on the negatives...sure as hell they start to look and feel bigger and bigger often much bigger than they actually are (kinda like the way I look at my butt ha ha ha !)
anyway hope that you are doing well and that some stress of the exams at school being overwith will find you with some much needed peace...
and speaking of peace...a previous poster suggested changing your phone # so the neice cannot call and harrass you...is that a possibility??? if so I'd do it..and make it an unlisted # while your at it..hope that sit resolves itself soon.
Sage and LL, well I just could relate to some of your "is this enough?" sentiment LL. Nothing huge and dire!
Sam, too funny, CJ just suggested if the neice calls again that we get an unlisted new number! We're all on the same page. And BTW we contacted a lawyer the day after the first calls, no fooling around. He suggested no contact at all.
Today I woke up with a headache . But CJ and I had breakfast (lunch) out and then headed out to a greenhouse to pick up some stuff for our yard. That was nice. I do remember doing that alone a few times in past years which was rather sad. So it was great to be making the plans together.
CJ's also been busy this week making contacts for future work possibilities. Very nice to see him excited about possibilities.
I had a moment after we got home today. We put together our new bird feeder (no problem) and hung it. We came back in and the cats circled for their dinner. I commented on CJ not adding "enough" dry food (you don't really want to hear my reasoning ), and he retorted, I ended up leaving the room saying "just do it however you want".
I plopped on the couch, this exhaustion thing is kind of getting me down. CJ asked, I said I was tired. True, but not entirely true. He pressed some and I admitted that it bothers me to be working so hard, being so tired and having the house still dirty at the end of the week.
So we TALKED about it and cleared some things up. You see, I had such a hard time identifying my former controlling behaviours that I'm rather gun-shy now. CJ assured me that if I come across as controlling he'll let me know (in a joky way, not a confrontational one).
So I asked "Wasn't asking you to clean out the tub the other day controlling?:" and he said "No". I guess it has a lot to do with the tone of voice and not micromanaging the job while or after he's done it. So I'm learning!
Must say it's good to know I can make requests and not have to worry about whether or not I'm "slipping back" into my old ways.
Why is it so hard for me to just make my wishes/needs clear? Why do I ASSume he should KNOW? For all I know, it hasn't even occurred to him that our physical intimacy has lapsed. Hmmmm....wonder if a direct request would work there??? Dare I????
Thanks all! I'm so glad I had a chance to catch up with some of you last night.
Hi, SB!! Why is it that direct communication works SO WELL, and is SO HARD to do??!!! Like exercising, kind of...
Quote: sometimes I notice that when I focus on the negatives...sure as hell they start to look and feel bigger and bigger often much bigger than they actually are (kinda like the way I look at my butt ha ha ha !)
LL - too funny!!!! The first time I've cracked a smile today, I think!!! THANKS!
SBH is getting the kids ready for bed. I push myself ALL THE TIME. I'm just sitting here doing bb stuff and letting him deal with them. I do it in the mornings by myself all the time. He's not complaining, and it just feels SO GOOD to sit here and not be trying to herd cats into the dogpen. I don't think I've let him help me enough in the past. He is really a willing partner. I just always felt bad because he is sick & tired a lot, and, well, who knows. My brain is starting to fizzle...can't do any more anlyzing....must stop thinking........
I had a 4 hour nap today. Man am I behind on sleep. My MA is more P this evening. How's that for use of abbreviations????
. We're going to the green house to buy some herbs and veggies, maybe a few other plants. That's our plan for the weekend, plant what we can. (being so far north, there is still a risk of frost here 
as CJ has to check something on the computer. We just had high-speed digital interent hooked up so at least I can sign on without dialing up and waiting!
