Hello!

Well I'm half-way through my long weekend. Wish I had more to show for it.

Tried to make it to see the Matrix on Friday night, but managed to convince ourselves that staying in was a better option...long lines, opening night, Cannes film festival on the independent film channel....

Slept in late Saturday, hedged on going out to camp, decided to stay in town. At least we did get outside and put a dent in the yard prep. 3 1/2 hours worth, backs of my thighs are hurtin' today.

Went to a different pal's birthday party. Didn't stay too late (2 a.m) but I managed to stay awake until the sky was starting to lighten. Thus I slept in til 2:30 today!

Sometimes I think I'm two people: the one who likes to stay up late: "Oh, come on...what do you have to get up early for? This is a good show/book...you're not tired yet!!!" and then the morning person: "Dammit, why did I waste half of one of my days off sleeping??? ".

Crap!

So I was rather down. Couldn't decide whether to go to camp today, tomorrow, not at all...what groceries to bring? ARgggh!

Finally settled on making some pasta sauce and meatballs tonight, leftovers for tomorrow whatever may come.

I hate that whole..."My life is passing me by...but I can't make any decisions to alter it"...kind of fatalistic thinking, reminiscent of my high anxiety days. YUCK!

So good food, wine, and some music are probably in order for tonight. Been a while since we had one of those evenings, been a while since we were intimate . In fact, that's probably feeding some of my "down" mood right now.

Oh well. Just life.

Shiny