Hi, SHiny...hope you get to kick back for a day or two now that your mid term is done? Have a great weekend ...and thanks for stopping by my new thread!
Made it to the weekend! It's the long weekend here, I think we're supposed to be celebrating the Queen's birthday, but it's just the first excuse to open the camp and drink beers by a bonfire.
(The term "camp" is used in my area to denote any building designed for summer habitation, usually by a lake....including my Parent's three story version!).
We've decided to try to get in to see the Matrix tonight (wonder how long the line will be ) and head out to our pal's camp tomorrow. A whole whack of our friends spend the entire weekend out there so by then some will already be in "rare form".
Still feeling rather exhausted, no word on my blood-work yet. Will call next week.
Well I'm half-way through my long weekend. Wish I had more to show for it.
Tried to make it to see the Matrix on Friday night, but managed to convince ourselves that staying in was a better option...long lines, opening night, Cannes film festival on the independent film channel....
Slept in late Saturday, hedged on going out to camp, decided to stay in town. At least we did get outside and put a dent in the yard prep. 3 1/2 hours worth, backs of my thighs are hurtin' today.
Went to a different pal's birthday party. Didn't stay too late (2 a.m) but I managed to stay awake until the sky was starting to lighten. Thus I slept in til 2:30 today!
Sometimes I think I'm two people: the one who likes to stay up late: "Oh, come on...what do you have to get up early for? This is a good show/book...you're not tired yet!!!" and then the morning person: "Dammit, why did I waste half of one of my days off sleeping??? ".
Crap!
So I was rather down. Couldn't decide whether to go to camp today, tomorrow, not at all...what groceries to bring? ARgggh!
Finally settled on making some pasta sauce and meatballs tonight, leftovers for tomorrow whatever may come.
I hate that whole..."My life is passing me by...but I can't make any decisions to alter it"...kind of fatalistic thinking, reminiscent of my high anxiety days. YUCK!
So good food, wine, and some music are probably in order for tonight. Been a while since we had one of those evenings, been a while since we were intimate . In fact, that's probably feeding some of my "down" mood right now.
Hi, Shiny...hope you had a good night last night...maybe you're still asleep??
Hope you thought of some good romantic seduction techniques so you could encourage the intimate time...
Though, SBH and I might have used up all that was available to mankind this weekend... Tee hee.
I'm sure there's enough to go around...
Deep breaths, positive attude! Just getting my body off it's normal sleep schedule is enough to put me into the fatalistic mood...but I've always been pretty much of a sleep geek...
Enjoy your long weekend! God save the Queen! (esp. if it gets you a day off )
I probably should be sleeping right now, but I wanted to check on u's latest over in hopefulness.
A little stressed with my class...just pre-exam jitters (found a multiple choice item that basically gives away an essay question and so had to change the last page of the test tonight, tomorrow I get to rip off all the "wrong" last pages and staple in the right one. )
Then CJ's niece started calling again last night. As per his lawyer's advice he left the machine on and didn't pick up.
He seems to think she's purely after the money...keeps saying she wants to "settle this" outside of the courts. Settle what? If you recall little of her recollections coincide with the family arrangements at the time.
CJ discovered recently from his younger brother that there had been rumours of an "incident' with a baby sitter when the girl was around that age, which took place when they were living in a province over a 1000 miles from here.
I just feel badly for her. I think she really was abused, but perhaps having the memories blur. She even sounded confused herself on the phone....saying she just wants to know "the truth"...hmmm
So, Sam or anyone else, is there anything we or I could do here? Write her a letter, offer to go to her councellor (wonder if CJ would do that?).
Perhaps I just need to tamper my own anxiety (every time the phone rings I jump, keep expecting a cruiser at the door)...then tonight I grew a fine crop of hives all over the back of my neck .
Hi, Shiny! Ahhh the teacher's blues...edit edit replace replace staple staple...hives hives! (Get rid of those - they're not useful!!!! )
You're compassionate to want to send CJ's niece a letter...that womanly/psychology pull to want to help...Ellie's probably right about consulting a lawyer...I can't remember how old the niece is...19 or something??? If there is an adult in her life that you trust that she is trusting, it might be good to start with that, just find out if, from their perspective, there is anything you could do. Going to counseling sessions I think (being trained in family therapy) is a generous offer and can often be really useful for all involved - assuming it's a good therapist who will know how to put boundaries on during the session and use you to get info that will shed light on niece's needs...
If it's NOT an experienced/knowledgable therapist, it can be very painful if not harmful to do something like that. Sad, because you're no doubt correct - she's probably been molested/abused somewhere along the line. But, speaking unfortunately from both sides of the therapy room, when you're abused like that, most of the healing is your responsibility. She is blaming everyone else, I wonder if she has any sense that she must do the hard work to overcome this, and attacking others will make very little difference in her own healing process. From that perspective, it might be good just to let yourself off the hook. Stay out of her life as much as possible. Particularly if that will reduce the number of hives you get!!!!!
If you believe in prayer, you could do that...I know I would want to try to do SOMETHING, so talking to a lawyer & then family members might be something to try...
Good luck!!!!
Keep your eyes & heart on what you've got that's great!!!
...and thanks for stopping by my new thread!
) and head out to our pal's camp tomorrow. A whole whack of our friends spend the entire weekend out there so by then some will already be in "rare form". 
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