LOL Puddle on anger being new for me to show W Its funny only because that is the major complaint so failed pretty miserably on all this........however......I am not beating myself up about it, a true first.
I do want to be friends, a new one as well.
I must confess, although I have all these beautiful, caring women here telling me how great I am, I needed eye contact and a woman showing me that I mattered and was desirable in person to validate the fact that I am not a basically a loser in all this. PMA or whatever you want to call it, that has been a vaild fear / concern of mine, after over a year of true lack of affection (W and I went on a cruise 1 year ago which is really the last time I thought I saw any affection from her).
OK, getting that out there is tough for even Mr. Open CVA to say. Point is, it does help detach, if she comes my way now then great, if she doesnt, the disappointment will definitely be there but I am in a different place today.....today....stay tuned as we all know, feelings/emotions change, when will our WAS figure that one out, years from now I suspect.
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Me: 46 Wife: 39 D: 13 S: 11, 9, 7 Bomb 3.2.07, Sep Same Day, D papers 11.1.07 Current Status - Wants to take me through Discovery, I will go to prison first.
Its funny only because that is the major complaint so failed pretty miserably on all this........however......I am not beating myself up about it, a true first. 
