Get Me On A Smoother Ride....Need Advice #7

[SueS]

Good Morning-

Well, our weekend actually went pretty well. Friday around 6:00 pm I finally called H and told him I needed his help. I told him I didn't feel well and needed him to help with D3 when he got home. He said he would. He was okay at first, but ended up just putting D3 in our room with me. She fussed, tossed, turned....etc. I finally just took care of her. H was in the living room watching movies the whole time.

On Sat., I got up with D3 and we were in the living room when H got up. He was dressed to go work out. He said that he had to go in to work and then go buy groceries. I had a hair appt. on Sat. and he said he'd be back before then. Then he told D3 that maybe when I got home, the 3 of us could go out to Chuckie Cheese. I was surprised. So, we ended up going there together. H was really good. We just hung out at home later and relaxed.

Sunday I didn't do much of anything. H got up and went to work out. D3 and I also left to run an errand. Got a call from H wondering where we were. Didn't do much else. I still wasn't feeling well and had started to lose my voice. H was good about telling D3 that I didn't feel well and kept her entertained. H asked me what days we were going to be gone for Thanksgiving and kind of pushed for me either to leave on Wed. or come back on Mon. I told him no. I don't have the time to take. He also told me that he thinks we'll go to Chicago to see his dad after the first of the year now too instead of in Dec.

This morning we were all up before I left. H was quiet. I got a quiet little Good-Bye before I left.

So, overall a good weekend. I know H was in contact with OW over the weekend. No snooping, just know it. I'm feeling like it's time for a talk. I don't know what to say, so if it comes from me, I'll wait until after Thanksgiving and get my thoughts together. We haven't had any type of R talk in 2 months. I feel like I have to know where this thing is at with him & OW. I feel like it's more involved than I had ever hoped, but then there are the times that I wonder where it can go from here. When, will either of them pull the trigger. I have no idea what is happening with her. If her H knows or what's going on with them. I was in denial too long and this is just hurting too much. It's not that I don't want to keep fighting or keep trying to improve me, I'm just tired of being in the dark. Maybe having some light on the sitch will make things feel worse, I don't know. I just know that this really hurts.

Goals:

1- Catch up here at work. I have a ton to do and with being out, will be buried next week.

2- Take care of me. I know this is a repeat, but it might be one I keep using. Again, not feeling well, kind of lost my voice...etc.

3- Smile as much as possible. Being sick and being in this sitch has made that difficult today. I'll just keep looking up at D3's picture and thinking of Husband when he says....It's going to be a great day.

Have a great day.

SueS