Still Tryin's new thread 2

[S.T. _I Made It!]

Hey Phil!! I'm not really sure that I did anything different. I really let things get to me too personally sometimes... things like H slamming doors, or cussing/yelling. We argued about how he said he wasn't doing it to me, but he was acting out on things that I'M in charge of, like the dishes. So how is that NOT yelling at me? then of course when he said, "What do you do all day?" then I KNEW he was yelling AT me.

I think my usual old response was leaving, depressed, crying. and I had to do that again. I started trying to talk to him (the kids were in the room-- and I can't even remember what it was he was yelling about now) and I couldn't even explain myself cause I started crying so I left and went in the bathroom. Then what sucked is he followed me in there, told kids to leave, and started slamming the other doors and proceeds to yell in my face.

well... I have to stop taking things so personally.. although it REALLY hard... but he told me he had a really bad week, he hurt his back, and so he probalby just let everything out on me.

Thanks for telling me I did good.

and actually, before his appology text, I decided I would make a list of everything I do everyday for a week, that way he can SEE it. it could be an eye opener for me though. but hey, I'm working on my MV business too, so it's not just playing on the computer all the time.

This week WILL be better! it better be, my H is off for three days. so is s9. yikes!