Thanks for asking. It was a whole different world to be with such an interesting man who is so well spoken and poised and who looks like Beckham. I am not a jealous person and I do not play games but my goodness, if I could let it leak to my H that I was out with this one. Well, he is moving to Hollywood but I will "hang out" while he is here for the next few months. I am wondering about stuff. You know. Stuff. I don't think I am ready for all that stuff. I am not waiting for my H to be back but there are two camps of thought on this stuff.

1. Just date, go out to dinner, have friendships, companionship. Don't fall in love. Just have fun. No physical stuff until a final divorce or at least a legal separation with intent to divorce. who knows.

2. Find a stuff buddy. Meaningless. No attachments. Is that even possible?
Either way I do not want my kids to meet anyone I date, If i should accept this mission, until after a divorce and until I am sure they would be good stock and not deceitful. Sounds highly improbable.


I honestly do not think I could do either. Stuff without love? Stuff just for stuff's sake?

Again, I have moved on and detached from H. I do not miss him or ache to see him. I actually do not want him to even know who I am seeing. I want my privacy BUT I do not want to see him with his whore anywhere and it offends me to the bone that she works in an adult boutique maybe only eight stores down from my work, and that he is there all the time with her so that all my customers and employees see him hanging out like a total loser prevert married dirty old man in a sex shop. Sicko. My H is dead, this creep murdered him and assumed his identity. Did I mention I was detached?

Last edited by mkultra; 11/19/07 12:17 AM.
Me:38 H:39 MLC
M:10 R:23 years
D6 S3
Bomb: Easter, 2007
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