Jar, can I tell you something w/o you getting defensive? I'm reading between the lines here, however, what I'm "hearing" is that you are TRYING not to care, but you still do more than you want to and you are playing her games.

I can almost feel what you are feeling right now, BTDT, but you need to truly figure out how to detach for real. I think you're trying, but just acting like you are right now.

I could be way off, but that's what I'm seeing.

I truly know how much this sucks and I wish I could take it all away.

Me: 38
H: 35
S4, S5, S10
Bomb 01/07
Wanted D - nothing would change his mind
Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb
Piecing 04/07
Deployed for a year 05/07
Still Piecing 2010
M 11 yrs 05/10