Pieces are Coming Together

[Torchbearer]

I'm new to this section of the DB forums. I have been over in Newcomers. H and I are now working on piecing our M together. The "breakthrough" was last Friday, so just over a week ago. I have one of the rare types of S that after DBing my butt off and working hard on the LRT my H out of the blue told me he wants to come back.

Okay, it wasn't quite as out of the blue as it sounds. We had been making some progress after a couple of really rough months. I came to terms with my issues and extended him a symbol of trust. With that he suggested we meet to talk. It was the first time we talked since he had moved out 2 months prior. We had some email arguments in between, but nothing good. I backed way off and this is when he suggested we talk. I coached myself and kept it upbeat. It went so well I invited him to a movie the following week. He agreed and we went. It was after the movie that he told me he wasn't doing very well and he could see that I was working really hard to make some genuine changes and he wanted to work on the R/M again.

He is still living with a friend of his and I soooooo want him to come home, but I am playing it really cool. We've been on a number of dates and spent this weekend together. It was so fun. The "dating" has been great. We are like we were 8 years ago. Both trying to impress and putting on our best behavior, trying so hard to please the other. Only downfall, is just like when we first started dating we are so enamoured with each other that we don't have time to do our normal stuff. Which in its own way is okay I guess. It means that our R is more important than say, doing the laundry, and it is.

Thing is, after a blissful weekend together, he's now back at his friends house and I miss him already. I emailed him and he misses me too. I was so close to asking him today if he'd given any thought to when he'd like to move back. We both know he is, it's just a matter of when. I kind of feel like he's waiting for me to invite him and I'm waiting for him to say he's ready. So I guess what this tells me is that we need to talk about it - even if he doesn't move tomorrow or next week, but another month or more, we still need to talk about it.

I'm glad to be here, but I'm having a down moment. A let down really, just because he isn't around. Sad, I know, but it is kind of compared to young love. I've worked so hard at GAL and actually have plenty to do today (besides being here ) but I'm just down. It doesn't help that it's snowing and dreary outside.