Why do I feel the need to justify myself to her? I even feel the need to justify a bit here. That bothers me more than the nitpicking. I know the problem is that I need to have more confidence in my own actions.
This was a huge problem for me after my first was born and especially after I went back to work after a year. I call it MOMMY GUILT, as a matter of fact there is a good book with the same title. I think you give birth to guilt when you give birth...comes with the title. You feel like what you're doing is never enough and you have to justify every choice/decision. I find myself justifying it to myself! Ironically, this also contributed to the breakdown of our R. When D was 1 yr I went back to work and had a REALLY hard time balancing work and home. I felt SO guilty about the quality of meals I putting on the table among other things and I think it began to drive H nuts b/c I became so robot like and tense all the time.
MIL is a big one for us too. He has never really stood up to his mom. I love her to death, but she had a habit of being in our faces all the time and he could never speak his mind to her. Good to hear your xh is standing up for you.
Really interesting also that you're noticing your own feelings with regards to craziness and his patterns. Do you think he will discuss this with you? Does he recognize he's getting crazy again? J~
M 35 H 29 M 4 yrs T 9 yrs D 3 S born 10/19/07 Bomb 09/10/07 Separated next day OW - broke up and H moved out 09/07/08 Status - still figuring this out
